Feb 16, 2016
Momfession: I Go To Therapy
That's right. Believe it or not, this super woman doesn't have everything under control all the time. And you're probably wondering why I see a therapist. There are a few reasons. When I first moved down to Atlanta almost a year ago, I didn't know anyone. I'd get awful attacks, which I'm finding out were panic attacks, because I was isolated with 4 months with no job, no family members around me and no friends. It was hard and a pretty low point in my life of trying to make it in an area where I didn't know a single person, besides my husband and daughter.
Fast forward a few months and I had a great job but we had found our dream home, our offer was accepted and we were going to move in TWO weeks. It was crazy, stressful and on top of that, work was busy too. I had a few meltdowns, got into big arguments with Zach and just felt lost. I didn't know how to control my emotions or express them in a way that wasn't hurtful due to all the stress and anxiety I was feeling. After a long talk, I knew I needed to talk to a professional and you know what, I was terrified because I felt like a failure as a Mom, friend, sister and daughter that I couldn't handle how to operate my own emotions.
But here's the best part. My therapist isn't my friend. She doesn't know my friends, family members or past life. She just listens. She listens to my complaints, concerns and helps me confront my emotions. There are times where I'm upset about a situation and after discussing it with her, I realize the issue wasn't at all what I was thinking. She helps me focus on the bigger picture, the individual tress in the forest of emotions. It's been about 4 months and my relationship with Zach, daughter, friends and family have taken a huge turn for the better. Coloring has always helped me destress when I start to feel anxious as well. Seriously, these adult coloring books are my jam.
So why am I telling you this? So many of you were so kind and helpful when I shared my panic attack post a few weeks ago and I want to say that if you're pondering to see someone about a situation, do it. You shouldn't be embarrassed that you don't have it all together. Are you stressed with your toddler? Worried about a friendship or close relationship? Concerned about a life event? Admitting weakness is you're greatest strength. I can't promise you'll have it figured out today, but you'll work towards gaining the tools to help you work through to the life you're meant to lead.
PS- Don't forget about the Stella And Dot Giveaway going on now!